I'm becoming too emotional...
it's okay that I show a little bit of vulnerability but I can't bare it all. I have to try and convince myself that I don't care at all when really...I do...And I want to. I want to make moments last more than just minutes, more than just hours, more than just months...I want them to be infinite...time suspended. But no...you have to go, you have to leave, you never stay. God just didn't write the story that way and I've accepted it. I accept the fact that my fairy tale may conclude with just I and my king...no Prince Charming and no manifestation of my dreams. But I'm still emotional about it. I'm unable to say that I don't fantasize or get lost in my mind sometimes where those memories rewind and cause a few tears to fall from my eyes. I don't know what I'm feeling. But I know there's healing. There was for them and I know there will be for me. Right now I just can't see. Blinded by my emotions just waiting for love to find me...to hold me...to surround me...to be vulnerable with me so that I can bare it all and just be emotionally free
