God-
You are my everything =) You are the only one who can tear me down and pick me back up. You are life unimagineable. You changed me and showed me your mercy and your grace and the love that I've always wanted. You have changed me with your heart and your intent to love me and willingness to serve me as a servant of you. You are everything - my everything. Thank you.
Showing posts with label bipolar. Show all posts
Showing posts with label bipolar. Show all posts
Tuesday, May 03, 2016
Sunday, May 01, 2016
11-29-2015::12-1-2015
Since you keep asking God...I want a job that allows me to work in my own space, doing things that I'm good at - talking to people and/or creating things. I want to be surrounded by older people whom I can learn from and younger people that I can learn from. I want to be able to dress how I want to a certain extent and I want to make enough to cover what I need and to save. I don't want to be far from home and I want the job to do what it was created to do...in Jesus name...if I had my own office again I'd be happy - a job where I'm trusted to get my work done independently. I guess I don't really want this Red Lobster job, but I'm thankful for it and still excited about what's to come from it.
Saturday, April 30, 2016
11-23-2015 "Thanks..."
11-23-2015
Thanks for the job God. I'm too focused on the negative and what I don't have. It's been a very different way of living - not having - and having to depend on people. Thank you for allowing me to have a friend here with me...even if he doesn't really want to be here, thank you. I pray for everybody else I call a friend or that has called me friend. I believe that everything happens for a reason and that I am still on this Earth for a reason.
You made me with a heart for people and patience for people and I thank you for that. I don't know where I'd be without you God. I don't know where I'd be at all. Right now - you're shining grace on me and mercy and [I] appreciate it all and I know that things are getting better. I know that things aren't always easy but I do believe in your word and your promises. I've seen them come true for so many and I believe that you'll do the same for me too. Thanks you for life. Thank you for opportunity. Thank you for tomorrow. Things will be better.
Thanks for the job God. I'm too focused on the negative and what I don't have. It's been a very different way of living - not having - and having to depend on people. Thank you for allowing me to have a friend here with me...even if he doesn't really want to be here, thank you. I pray for everybody else I call a friend or that has called me friend. I believe that everything happens for a reason and that I am still on this Earth for a reason.
You made me with a heart for people and patience for people and I thank you for that. I don't know where I'd be without you God. I don't know where I'd be at all. Right now - you're shining grace on me and mercy and [I] appreciate it all and I know that things are getting better. I know that things aren't always easy but I do believe in your word and your promises. I've seen them come true for so many and I believe that you'll do the same for me too. Thanks you for life. Thank you for opportunity. Thank you for tomorrow. Things will be better.
Friday, April 29, 2016
11-8-2015
11-8-2015
Today is a new day God. I mean that more than I've ever meant it before lol. It's funny that it's the 8th too - the number of new beginnings. I'm excited about it. I want to be sad - my flesh wants to cry and throw tantrums and scream and be angry - but I know that great things are in store for me. They always are. I just get so impatient and I just want everything right now...still do...but I must realize that I do have everything because I have God. I believe you'll get me through whatever it is that I face. With you all things are possible. That is why I've failed for so long. I've been relying too heavily on man and they have not ceased to let me fall but they've also lifted me up and drawn me closer to you. I thank you for all of them God and for the life I have now. I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. More of you is all I want God and all I ask. I love you God in the name of Jesus.
(Why does this pen ink keep changing colors? lol)
(Happy Birthday Great-Grandma)
Today is a new day God. I mean that more than I've ever meant it before lol. It's funny that it's the 8th too - the number of new beginnings. I'm excited about it. I want to be sad - my flesh wants to cry and throw tantrums and scream and be angry - but I know that great things are in store for me. They always are. I just get so impatient and I just want everything right now...still do...but I must realize that I do have everything because I have God. I believe you'll get me through whatever it is that I face. With you all things are possible. That is why I've failed for so long. I've been relying too heavily on man and they have not ceased to let me fall but they've also lifted me up and drawn me closer to you. I thank you for all of them God and for the life I have now. I wouldn't change it for anything in the world. More of you is all I want God and all I ask. I love you God in the name of Jesus.
(Why does this pen ink keep changing colors? lol)
(Happy Birthday Great-Grandma)
Thursday, April 28, 2016
11-5-2015 part 2
11-5-2015 part 2
I know I'm not supposed to understand everything...but that ain't you God. It's sometimes hard to tell where you truthfully reside. I catch glimpses of you. Whether or not it's reality or my own will is the question. I try to see the best in all people and acknowledge the potential they have to get there. But if they refuse to grow, there's just nothing I can do right? Just pray for them. God grant my loved ones the gift of forgiveness. The ability to look past the flaws of the flesh and see you. I truly am sorry. You know my conscious mind does not behave that way. Have your way God.
I know I'm not supposed to understand everything...but that ain't you God. It's sometimes hard to tell where you truthfully reside. I catch glimpses of you. Whether or not it's reality or my own will is the question. I try to see the best in all people and acknowledge the potential they have to get there. But if they refuse to grow, there's just nothing I can do right? Just pray for them. God grant my loved ones the gift of forgiveness. The ability to look past the flaws of the flesh and see you. I truly am sorry. You know my conscious mind does not behave that way. Have your way God.
Wednesday, April 27, 2016
11-5-2015
11-5-2015
I don't know how tired you want me to be. I don't know what else you want me to give up. I feel more and more like I don't want want to live while waiting for whatever or whoever. Help is needed. You are needed. I should be saying that to myself. Lead the way - I trust you. Just tired...really tired.
I don't know how tired you want me to be. I don't know what else you want me to give up. I feel more and more like I don't want want to live while waiting for whatever or whoever. Help is needed. You are needed. I should be saying that to myself. Lead the way - I trust you. Just tired...really tired.
Tuesday, April 26, 2016
Monday, April 25, 2016
11-1-2015
This was the day after coming home from the hospital...I had been there for about 5-6 days
11-1-2015
I've been on a spiritual trip for about a month now God. I've cried a lot of tears...tears of sadness, tears of joy, tears of remembrance...and through it all you've shown yourself to be true. During this time I've done things I've never done before and you've protected me and kept me safe and for that I thank you. I truly owe my life to you God and I'm ready for you to take complete control. I'm working to deny my flesh the pleasures that it enjoys in hopes that you will provide me with something greater...something that I've never felt before. I want to be comfortable and maintain the peace you've given me in order for your will to be done. But you know what I want God. More importantly, you know what I need. I want what I need now more than ever. Please guide me to where I'm supposed to go. I'll follow you. I am ready to love...you.
11-1-2015
I've been on a spiritual trip for about a month now God. I've cried a lot of tears...tears of sadness, tears of joy, tears of remembrance...and through it all you've shown yourself to be true. During this time I've done things I've never done before and you've protected me and kept me safe and for that I thank you. I truly owe my life to you God and I'm ready for you to take complete control. I'm working to deny my flesh the pleasures that it enjoys in hopes that you will provide me with something greater...something that I've never felt before. I want to be comfortable and maintain the peace you've given me in order for your will to be done. But you know what I want God. More importantly, you know what I need. I want what I need now more than ever. Please guide me to where I'm supposed to go. I'll follow you. I am ready to love...you.
Saturday, April 23, 2016
Forever Yours 10.25.15
Forever Yours 10.25.15
I'm so glad I made it God. Everything I do. I want to do for you God. I was made to worship you and you alone God. I don't have to do anything I don't want to. But, I want to do those things for you God. If you ask me to - for you - I'll do it. For you I will. You're so amazing God. And I can't tell you enough, how much I love you. I am ready for a new life with you. I'm ready to do your work. I want to do your work.
Forever Yours,
Danitra
10.25.15
I'm so glad I made it God. Everything I do. I want to do for you God. I was made to worship you and you alone God. I don't have to do anything I don't want to. But, I want to do those things for you God. If you ask me to - for you - I'll do it. For you I will. You're so amazing God. And I can't tell you enough, how much I love you. I am ready for a new life with you. I'm ready to do your work. I want to do your work.
Forever Yours,
Danitra
10.25.15
Friday, April 22, 2016
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I ain't stupid God. You know that though. You've built me from scraps of much rubble. fallen pieces and fragments of something much larger. You. God you are bigger than all of us and none of this would be possible without you. The choices we have to make in life are never easy. Things can be hard, but they won't be for long. You make it so that it's not. I'm gon be alright alone or with you. I'll only last so long by myself though without crying. I'll survive. I'll still live and work - but I'll feel empty doing it alone, or if I have no one to share it with. But, I know that I have the world now. I know that I was created to do big things. Thank you God.
Love you
Peace =)
I ain't stupid God. You know that though. You've built me from scraps of much rubble. fallen pieces and fragments of something much larger. You. God you are bigger than all of us and none of this would be possible without you. The choices we have to make in life are never easy. Things can be hard, but they won't be for long. You make it so that it's not. I'm gon be alright alone or with you. I'll only last so long by myself though without crying. I'll survive. I'll still live and work - but I'll feel empty doing it alone, or if I have no one to share it with. But, I know that I have the world now. I know that I was created to do big things. Thank you God.
Love you
Peace =)
Thursday, April 21, 2016
10.23.2015
10.23.2015
I'm tired. Haven't been to sleep and I'm just tired. I probably am being selfish but why shouldn't I be. Nobody seems to want to look at the bigger issues. Just the things that involve them personally. I'm not going to speak just because I am able. I should have something to say. I could've sat and sang all night, but I can do that at home. Only difference is getting paid for it. I don't want to entertain people though. What do I look like telling everyone else to shut up so I can talk.
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Not sure if I've mentioned that I'm manic-depressive...
I'm tired. Haven't been to sleep and I'm just tired. I probably am being selfish but why shouldn't I be. Nobody seems to want to look at the bigger issues. Just the things that involve them personally. I'm not going to speak just because I am able. I should have something to say. I could've sat and sang all night, but I can do that at home. Only difference is getting paid for it. I don't want to entertain people though. What do I look like telling everyone else to shut up so I can talk.
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Not sure if I've mentioned that I'm manic-depressive...
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